"It makes me sick."

Turns out Mum was right all along.

If you’re like me, you’re having a quiet weep in various rooms of the house, hiding from your family sometimes and then at other times just letting the rage out.

Power and corruption, like little lobster hands, strolling through our lives, doo-di-doo-di-doo.

I remember my Mum in the kitchen in our home in Devon, listening to Today, tutting, grimacing. I would watch her — from cooker to cupboard, fridge to sink, the exact same domestic dance my kids watch me move through — and I would try to tune in to what was being said on Radio 4.

Invariably it was reports of white men having been caught: Embezzling money. Hiring sex workers. Invading lands. Bombing cities. Paying this person off. Hiding that piece of information. All in the hope of maintaining the power and the privileges they had.

I want armies and armies of feminist journalists and lawyers. I want armies of feminist judges and juries. I want hundreds, thousands of female-owned and run businesses where I can spend my money, locally as well as internationally.

I want us all to Google “female owned businesses near me” and to intentionally go to these. And to stop giving money to Bezos (OK he isn’t named in the Epstein Files — YET — but he supports DT so…).

I simply want our society to be feminist. I long for a society where we women are equal. Where power is shared. Is as much in our hands as it is in mens’.

I long for a time when the next Epstein, the next Mountbatten-Windsor (Musk, Gates, Branson etc. etc. — the list will grow in the coming months I have no doubt) simply cannot do what they want with women and girls, because women and girls have access to power.

My Mum would say, “It makes me sick.” And it turns out she was right.

We are a sick, sick society; increasingly unequal, based around male values of growth, competition and dominance. Over 80% of autoimmune diseases are diagnosed in women. It’s no accident that conditions disproportionately affecting women are often under-researched. (Hello Hormones!)

People, we cannot untangle ourselves from this unless we start supporting women.

Buy Women Built. might be another good place to start.

Want to start a business? Please, DO! There is absolutely nothing to stop you. You have ideas within you which are of value to others.

This week I have been listening to Rage Against The Machine’s Killing In The Name Of REALLY REALLY LOUD and dancing, often with tears running down my face. I heartily recommend you do the same.

All together now: Fuck you I won’t do what you tell me.

Haven’t we all been too good for too long?

More rage soon —

Catrin.

P.S April-June 2026’s cohorts are there for the taking.

P.P.S This week has been Rage, Shame & Grief week with my current cohorts. Amazing to make space for all of the people, institutions, systems and lies mothers are trying to contort themselves into fitting.

Write it all out! Share it! Shame festers in the dark.